Last night I went to see Grandpa and Grandma at the hospital. Whew he looks bad...More hair is gone, and he doesn't wear his dentures. It's awful to see someone just deteriorate before your eyes.
But oh my gosh the people that have come to visit him. Yesterday when I went, a guy that he did business with in Evensville had driven up. This is someone that he knew only through work, but he made that strong of an impression on him. It really is a great testement to the type of man my grandpa was/is/and will be again.
I think he has started to decide he doesn't want to continue, when he is coherent enough to form clear thoughts, he starts to tell us the pictures he wants at his funeral and in lieu of flowers donate money to his church.
I don't want him to hurt anymore but I don't want him to give up either.
The other day I made a list of things I will always remember about my grandpa, it was sad and fun at the same time.
The drs hve pretty much told us that for right now it appears as though we are prolonging the inevitable and he is to compromised to do any more chemo, so for now, we just wait..wait and pray
Also, to all of those who have emailed, called or told me in person that you are praying, chantiing sending out vibes for him and my family-thanks. It has meant more then you know.