Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Day 24
**EDIT** Ugh thanks for pointing it out Brit, but this was not intentioned to be an Emo-ey shot. crap...
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
blast from the past
About 5 years ago, Molly Gesenhues and I went to see Rob Zombie at Ear X-Tacy, I'd almost forgotten about it, until I came across this picture while I was going through some random stuff.
Yeah, I don't stick out or anything.
Yeah, I don't stick out or anything.
I must be emo...
Usually by the time the local news covers a story its so twisted and bent out of shape and over exagerated, it's just funny.
As is the case with the following story a news channel did on "emos" or "emotionals".
*Christ, I cry all the time once a month. WTF is all the talk of cutting?
As is the case with the following story a news channel did on "emos" or "emotionals".
*Christ, I cry all the time once a month. WTF is all the talk of cutting?
Monday, February 26, 2007
5 months!
Lilli-bug! You're almost a whole half a year old, I can't freaking believe it.
You're getting so big and gorgeous, with that lovely red hair, and your eyes, oh what a wonderful shade, just like your brothers. You sleep all night now and the milk is starting to not be able to hold you over. We tried a little bit of cereal on Saturdy, and pssh you've had better.
It appears the only gene that you've gotten from me is the "nosey gene" you hold that noggin up so you can be in everyones business!
At your last check up you weighed 11lb 11 oz! A far cry from the wee 5 lbs when you came to meet us.
I love the fact that you won't eat for your daddy as well as for me, and that you can always be comforted by the sound of my voice and the soothing touch of my hand.
I love you Lilli-bug!
You're getting so big and gorgeous, with that lovely red hair, and your eyes, oh what a wonderful shade, just like your brothers. You sleep all night now and the milk is starting to not be able to hold you over. We tried a little bit of cereal on Saturdy, and pssh you've had better.
It appears the only gene that you've gotten from me is the "nosey gene" you hold that noggin up so you can be in everyones business!
At your last check up you weighed 11lb 11 oz! A far cry from the wee 5 lbs when you came to meet us.
I love the fact that you won't eat for your daddy as well as for me, and that you can always be comforted by the sound of my voice and the soothing touch of my hand.
I love you Lilli-bug!
Conner and the Beast
took the boy to see Beauty and the Beast at Adam and I's old high school.
Fabulous job, really. Made me a bit nostalgic for my days in high school theatre, andmaking out with Adam in the light booth putting on some fabulous shows.
Fabulous job, really. Made me a bit nostalgic for my days in high school theatre, and
# 2
carry your heart with me
i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)
Happy Anniversary, Adam.
i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)
Happy Anniversary, Adam.
Friday, February 23, 2007
New Albany City Council
Hold on to your seats ladies and gents. Thanks to several last minute filings for city council seats, this is going to be an election not to miss.
Check out the new listings via the Tribune. With the primarys being the first of May, we have some major rushed campaigning to do, so if you live around here, watch for me hitting the streets and of course GET OUT AND VOTE!!
Check out the new listings via the Tribune. With the primarys being the first of May, we have some major rushed campaigning to do, so if you live around here, watch for me hitting the streets and of course GET OUT AND VOTE!!
Foto Flashback Friday
The lovely Mrs Jenna Hatfield has come up with a wonderful meme for Fridays that allows us to look back and make fun of our selves.
A Foto Flashback Friday pool has also been started over at Flickr, so browse around and submit your pics.
A Foto Flashback Friday pool has also been started over at Flickr, so browse around and submit your pics.
the hotness
seriously, how old am I? First I can't get enough of Fergie, then Justin Timberlake and now Christina?
Whatevs, she is the hotness and so's her new video for Candy Man
Whatevs, she is the hotness and so's her new video for Candy Man
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Thank you!
Ok, so I know we're all dancing around this Britney thing like the giant pink elephant in the room, but seriously kids WTF? This poor child has lost her effing mind. I feel like I just sit back slack jawed and watch in amazment as she does one bat-shit crazy thing after the next. TEAM KFED!
What's next crazy?
What's next crazy?
WHERE'S MY BABY?
Well, it's finally time for me to acknowledge that Conner is not my baby any more :-(. Tuesday night we made the move to a big boy bed. Complete with Diego sheets. I expected tears and multiple trips going in and re-planting his butt in the bed but no, he's once again proven that he is THE most amazing child ever.
So yeah, thats been the most exciting thing we've got going on around here.
So yeah, thats been the most exciting thing we've got going on around here.
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Ash Wednesday
Today is Ash Wednesday, the first of forty days of lent.
I'll be going to the Ash Wednesday service at my church tonight, where I will go to pray, meditate and seek forgiveness for my sins and reflect on my relationship with Jesus and God.
**sidenote: I am by no means a perfect Christian and do not mean to come off as one, the road that led me to this point in my spiritual life was/is long and rough, I'm rather hoping to provide my experience, strength and hope for those who are curious**
I'll be going to the Ash Wednesday service at my church tonight, where I will go to pray, meditate and seek forgiveness for my sins and reflect on my relationship with Jesus and God.
**sidenote: I am by no means a perfect Christian and do not mean to come off as one, the road that led me to this point in my spiritual life was/is long and rough, I'm rather hoping to provide my experience, strength and hope for those who are curious**
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Moritz!
The mail brought a pleasant surprise the other day! Our friend Moritz, who was an exchange student from Germany our jr year of high school, is getting married this summer! We have seen Moritz about every two years since high school, and are honored that he has invited us to share in this important moment.
Here is a picture of Adam (with hair!!!) and Moritz from 1998.
Here is a picture of Adam (with hair!!!) and Moritz from 1998.
day 19
I need to get my act together and make time to do things I enjoy. No more scrambled running at the last minute. In other words time to stop, and smell the roses...
Of Jello and Faith
Morning Edition, November 21, 2005 • I believe that there is no God.
I'm beyond Atheism. Atheism is not believing in God. Not believing in
God is easy -- you can't prove a negative, so there's no work to do.
You can't prove that there isn't an elephant inside the trunk of my
car. You sure? How about now? Maybe he was just hiding before. Check
again. Did I mention that my personal heartfelt definition of the
word "elephant" includes mystery, order, goodness, love and a spare
tire?
So, anyone with a love for truth outside of herself has to start with
no belief in God and then look for evidence of God. She needs to
search for some objective evidence of a supernatural power. All the
people I write e-mails to often are still stuck at this searching
stage. The Atheism part is easy.
But, this "This I Believe" thing seems to demand something more
personal, some leap of faith that helps one see life's big picture,
some rules to live by. So, I'm saying, "This I believe: I believe
there is no God."
Having taken that step, it informs every moment of my life. I'm not
greedy. I have love, blue skies, rainbows and Hallmark cards, and
that has to be enough. It has to be enough, but it's everything in
the world and everything in the world is plenty for me. It seems just
rude to beg the invisible for more. Just the love of my family that
raised me and the family I'm raising now is enough that I don't need
heaven. I won the huge genetic lottery and I get joy every day.
Believing there's no God means I can't really be forgiven except by
kindness and faulty memories. That's good; it makes me want to be
more thoughtful. I have to try to treat people right the first time
around.
Believing there's no God stops me from being solipsistic. I can read
ideas from all different people from all different cultures. Without
God, we can agree on reality, and I can keep learning where I'm
wrong. We can all keep adjusting, so we can really communicate. I
don't travel in circles where people say, "I have faith, I believe
this in my heart and nothing you can say or do can shake my faith."
That's just a long-winded religious way to say, "shut up," or another
two words that the FCC likes less. But all obscenity is less
insulting than, "How I was brought up and my imaginary friend means
more to me than anything you can ever say or do." So, believing there
is no God lets me be proven wrong and that's always fun. It means I'm
learning something.
Believing there is no God means the suffering I've seen in my family,
and indeed all the suffering in the world, isn't caused by an
omniscient, omnipresent, omnipotent force that isn't bothered to help
or is just testing us, but rather something we all may be able to
help others with in the future. No God means the possibility of less
suffering in the future.
Believing there is no God gives me more room for belief in family,
people, love, truth, beauty, sex, Jell-o and all the other things I
can prove and that make this life the best life I will ever have."
My friend Brit, posted the preceding article on his website, and since I wanted to hear your views on the subject and his blog is password protected I thought I’d just repost here.
My response is as follows:
Thanks Brit for posting this, it was indeed an interesting read. I suppose the part that really struck me first was the following quote:
**So, anyone with a love for truth outside of herself has to start with
no belief in God and then look for evidence of God. She needs to
search for some objective evidence of a supernatural power**
It then goes on to talk about how most people get stuck here and that’s true, yet you never really hear about what happens when people find their own proof do we? What if I have all the evidence I need in seeing other peoples actions, and the beauty of a birth of a child, or celebrating someones 12 step birthday? What if that evidence is good enough for me?
I was sorry to hear that he finds it insulting when people proclaim their faith whether it has been steadfast, waning or lost and found again. You asked for an answer and that's it. Ever heard of a gut feeling or mother's intuition? Why are they there? Who knows, they just are. With the same ability to be explained as why a gene mutates. Sometimes it just does.
The thing though that puzzles me the most about this is why? Why does Penn really care if faith helps me sleep at night? Is he really so interested in disproving it and taking away the thing that I clung to at night and in the NICU while I prayed that both of my babies wouldn’t die? Why would he want to take it away from troops and their families whom it helps get through the days and nights? Why take away the comfort from a family surrounding their dying relative whose sole comfort is knowing that at least know he’s in a better place and not suffering anymore?
I believe in Jello, and family, and sex and God. I believe that there are others who simply will never believe, and there are others who believed so hard and true and got hurt, so hurt that they stopped believing.
I’m glad that Penn see’s this as an opportunity to treat people better the first time around, for me knowing there’s a higher power that is happy to see me do well, and to see others do well. That’s my motivation. So here’s to your Jello and sex and family, I’ll have mine too with a little side of faith.
I'm beyond Atheism. Atheism is not believing in God. Not believing in
God is easy -- you can't prove a negative, so there's no work to do.
You can't prove that there isn't an elephant inside the trunk of my
car. You sure? How about now? Maybe he was just hiding before. Check
again. Did I mention that my personal heartfelt definition of the
word "elephant" includes mystery, order, goodness, love and a spare
tire?
So, anyone with a love for truth outside of herself has to start with
no belief in God and then look for evidence of God. She needs to
search for some objective evidence of a supernatural power. All the
people I write e-mails to often are still stuck at this searching
stage. The Atheism part is easy.
But, this "This I Believe" thing seems to demand something more
personal, some leap of faith that helps one see life's big picture,
some rules to live by. So, I'm saying, "This I believe: I believe
there is no God."
Having taken that step, it informs every moment of my life. I'm not
greedy. I have love, blue skies, rainbows and Hallmark cards, and
that has to be enough. It has to be enough, but it's everything in
the world and everything in the world is plenty for me. It seems just
rude to beg the invisible for more. Just the love of my family that
raised me and the family I'm raising now is enough that I don't need
heaven. I won the huge genetic lottery and I get joy every day.
Believing there's no God means I can't really be forgiven except by
kindness and faulty memories. That's good; it makes me want to be
more thoughtful. I have to try to treat people right the first time
around.
Believing there's no God stops me from being solipsistic. I can read
ideas from all different people from all different cultures. Without
God, we can agree on reality, and I can keep learning where I'm
wrong. We can all keep adjusting, so we can really communicate. I
don't travel in circles where people say, "I have faith, I believe
this in my heart and nothing you can say or do can shake my faith."
That's just a long-winded religious way to say, "shut up," or another
two words that the FCC likes less. But all obscenity is less
insulting than, "How I was brought up and my imaginary friend means
more to me than anything you can ever say or do." So, believing there
is no God lets me be proven wrong and that's always fun. It means I'm
learning something.
Believing there is no God means the suffering I've seen in my family,
and indeed all the suffering in the world, isn't caused by an
omniscient, omnipresent, omnipotent force that isn't bothered to help
or is just testing us, but rather something we all may be able to
help others with in the future. No God means the possibility of less
suffering in the future.
Believing there is no God gives me more room for belief in family,
people, love, truth, beauty, sex, Jell-o and all the other things I
can prove and that make this life the best life I will ever have."
My friend Brit, posted the preceding article on his website, and since I wanted to hear your views on the subject and his blog is password protected I thought I’d just repost here.
My response is as follows:
Thanks Brit for posting this, it was indeed an interesting read. I suppose the part that really struck me first was the following quote:
**So, anyone with a love for truth outside of herself has to start with
no belief in God and then look for evidence of God. She needs to
search for some objective evidence of a supernatural power**
It then goes on to talk about how most people get stuck here and that’s true, yet you never really hear about what happens when people find their own proof do we? What if I have all the evidence I need in seeing other peoples actions, and the beauty of a birth of a child, or celebrating someones 12 step birthday? What if that evidence is good enough for me?
I was sorry to hear that he finds it insulting when people proclaim their faith whether it has been steadfast, waning or lost and found again. You asked for an answer and that's it. Ever heard of a gut feeling or mother's intuition? Why are they there? Who knows, they just are. With the same ability to be explained as why a gene mutates. Sometimes it just does.
The thing though that puzzles me the most about this is why? Why does Penn really care if faith helps me sleep at night? Is he really so interested in disproving it and taking away the thing that I clung to at night and in the NICU while I prayed that both of my babies wouldn’t die? Why would he want to take it away from troops and their families whom it helps get through the days and nights? Why take away the comfort from a family surrounding their dying relative whose sole comfort is knowing that at least know he’s in a better place and not suffering anymore?
I believe in Jello, and family, and sex and God. I believe that there are others who simply will never believe, and there are others who believed so hard and true and got hurt, so hurt that they stopped believing.
I’m glad that Penn see’s this as an opportunity to treat people better the first time around, for me knowing there’s a higher power that is happy to see me do well, and to see others do well. That’s my motivation. So here’s to your Jello and sex and family, I’ll have mine too with a little side of faith.
Monday, February 19, 2007
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
House
So, OK, who else here watches House? I mean I can't get enough of this show. (perhaps it may have something to do with the hotness that is Hugh Laurie) but the dynamics between these characters is fantastic. And just when you think they've jumped they shark, they pull right back out with something new (Cameron and House, House being shot, House getting arrested!)
Hello would House and Cuddy just do the deed already? You know they sweat each other. Anyway.
Ohhh Ohh don't forget that in three weeks (after all the American Idol crap is over) Dave Matthews guest stars on the episode of House. That's what I'm talking about. I may have to watch this episode in our bedroom. If you know what I'm saying (dirtay!)
Hello would House and Cuddy just do the deed already? You know they sweat each other. Anyway.
Ohhh Ohh don't forget that in three weeks (after all the American Idol crap is over) Dave Matthews guest stars on the episode of House. That's what I'm talking about. I may have to watch this episode in our bedroom. If you know what I'm saying (dirtay!)
Monday, February 12, 2007
Friday, February 9, 2007
fresh start
Sweet Joseph and Mary, I get my haircut tomorrow. Once again, I am laying my head in Tylers capable hands with no promises or guarantee's as to the outcome.
Will I come home punk or refined? Modern or classic? I'm not sure, but I know it will give me the mental charge I need and have been needing for a while.
Will I come home punk or refined? Modern or classic? I'm not sure, but I know it will give me the mental charge I need and have been needing for a while.
Tuesday, February 6, 2007
N'alb
CSD has asked me to help snap some more positive aspects of the city and here's my first opportunity.
The Cardinal Ritter House with the steeple of St. Johns taken from the park by S Ellen Jones School. I edited the wires and poles out.
The Cardinal Ritter House with the steeple of St. Johns taken from the park by S Ellen Jones School. I edited the wires and poles out.
blizzard 2007
the local news channels are predicting major coldness and snow here today, I'm just waiting for the natural disaster nickname to surface. I'll keep you updated.
*11:19* Flakes spotted outside my window!
*2:16* Snow cover on the ground!
*11:19* Flakes spotted outside my window!
*2:16* Snow cover on the ground!
Monday, February 5, 2007
26 years young
Adam turns 26 years old today! Whew time for that quarter life crisis my dear. Oh wait already happened. :-)
I'm super proud of you and all you've accomplished at this point in your and our life. You are an amazing husband and father and I love you so much.
I'm super proud of you and all you've accomplished at this point in your and our life. You are an amazing husband and father and I love you so much.
answered
Why is it the more stuff I have to write about the less I feel like writing?
A big weekend was had by the Paris'! On Saturday I took Conner to see Go, Diego Go Live and saw Ms. Kirsten do an AMAZING job as Alicia. (seriously she was amazing I mean I had like tears in my eyes when she came out because how cool is this? She is doing exactly what she wants and is fabulous at it)
of course last night was the amazing SUPERBOWL where the Colts kicked Chicagos ass up and down the field. Woot!
The biggest thing that happened was while on the way to my mom and dads to watch the game, as we approached the highway I noticed two guys who looked like they were in the process of making the underside of the overpass a cozy little home.
That night when we got home and I started watching the weather and it said it was going to get down in the negatives, it's like someone just spoke to me. I finished feeding Lilli and handed her to Adam. I ran to the coat closet and pulled out all our fleece jackets that haven't been worn in months and years and grabbed some longsleeve shirts I got from my old job and announced that I was taking these to those men we saw earlier.
Adam didn't even try to talk me out of it. They were extremely grateful and all the way home I wished I could have done more, especially when one of the gentlemen asked if any of the jackets came with hoods. I wished I had blankets or something to cover their heads. It weighed on my mind all night and all morning and finally it hit me. Since I have this time now that I'm working at home, and instead of bitching about the sorry state (it really is) of our community I was going to do something proactive.
My sister is a crocheting fool and I called her this morning and asked how hard it was to learn how to crochet and how long did it take to make a scarf? After some encouraging words from her I ran to the local craft store on my break to pick up some yarn and a knitting needle.
I'm going to work fast now to get some scarves made and keep them in my car for just an instance last night. Then I'm going to continue to work on the scarves all summer and hopefully moving on to hats and build up a stockpile for next winter.
This was just an amazing experience. The last few Sundays at church (and weeks) one of the things thats weighed so heavily on my mind is the fact that I dont feel grateful enough or that I do enough to give back. yeah I pay my tithes and I donate lots of clothes to Goodwill but I just needed something more. This is the perfect opportunity, it's like God just dumped this right in my lap.
Yarn is pretty cheap and this will give me something to do with my hands other then eat :-) Of course if any of you have any leftover yarn that you'd like to send my way I'll put it to good use, and I think my sister is going to help out for sure.
I'll keep you guys posted on the status of this.
A big weekend was had by the Paris'! On Saturday I took Conner to see Go, Diego Go Live and saw Ms. Kirsten do an AMAZING job as Alicia. (seriously she was amazing I mean I had like tears in my eyes when she came out because how cool is this? She is doing exactly what she wants and is fabulous at it)
of course last night was the amazing SUPERBOWL where the Colts kicked Chicagos ass up and down the field. Woot!
The biggest thing that happened was while on the way to my mom and dads to watch the game, as we approached the highway I noticed two guys who looked like they were in the process of making the underside of the overpass a cozy little home.
That night when we got home and I started watching the weather and it said it was going to get down in the negatives, it's like someone just spoke to me. I finished feeding Lilli and handed her to Adam. I ran to the coat closet and pulled out all our fleece jackets that haven't been worn in months and years and grabbed some longsleeve shirts I got from my old job and announced that I was taking these to those men we saw earlier.
Adam didn't even try to talk me out of it. They were extremely grateful and all the way home I wished I could have done more, especially when one of the gentlemen asked if any of the jackets came with hoods. I wished I had blankets or something to cover their heads. It weighed on my mind all night and all morning and finally it hit me. Since I have this time now that I'm working at home, and instead of bitching about the sorry state (it really is) of our community I was going to do something proactive.
My sister is a crocheting fool and I called her this morning and asked how hard it was to learn how to crochet and how long did it take to make a scarf? After some encouraging words from her I ran to the local craft store on my break to pick up some yarn and a knitting needle.
I'm going to work fast now to get some scarves made and keep them in my car for just an instance last night. Then I'm going to continue to work on the scarves all summer and hopefully moving on to hats and build up a stockpile for next winter.
This was just an amazing experience. The last few Sundays at church (and weeks) one of the things thats weighed so heavily on my mind is the fact that I dont feel grateful enough or that I do enough to give back. yeah I pay my tithes and I donate lots of clothes to Goodwill but I just needed something more. This is the perfect opportunity, it's like God just dumped this right in my lap.
Yarn is pretty cheap and this will give me something to do with my hands other then eat :-) Of course if any of you have any leftover yarn that you'd like to send my way I'll put it to good use, and I think my sister is going to help out for sure.
I'll keep you guys posted on the status of this.
Saturday, February 3, 2007
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