This morning, freshly 5.
Conner's birth changed me in several ways, many I won't get into on here. He is truly a blessing, and I can honestly say he brings joy to everyone he meets (although Miss Lilli Bug might argue that point if given a chance). He is smart, caring, sensitive-oh so sensitive, helpful and kind. He takes after me very much in that if he thinks he has harmed you or caused you grief, he can't rest until he feels he's made up for it.
I won't lie, I was nervous for his and Adam's relationship when he was born. Adam had always made it very clear he was not interested in children, not his not anyone's and wouldn't change his mind for a long, long time. Adam was in basic training for the IANG at Fort Benning, GA when Conner was born, and wouldn't get to see him in person until Conner was 3 months old. I was terrified this would further wear away any chance at a bond for them. Adam and I weren't married when Conner was born, engaged yes, but he didn't really have to hang around.
Then when Conner got sick, oh gosh, it's so strange to think about because it's like I remember it so vividly but then it seems it's not possible we weren't in the NICU for over 3 weeks. Since Adam was at basic training, our only form of realtime communication was through the Red Cross and whenever he was given 5 minutes phone time. It was so hard to process what was going on with Conner's health and then to try and let Adam know in such chopped up chunks of communication, well, it just sucked.
Nevertheless, Conner survived that and has been amazing every day since.
Conner's 4th year of life brought us to Pre-kindergarten,
freaking out during the windstorm,
Adam leaving for 5 months with the military.
Barack Obama getting elected president
Visiting Adam at Fort Leonard Wood
Camping over Mother's Day
Welcoming Newman into our family
Here are a few other shots of Mr. Bean during his 4th year of life.
After getting caught in the rain walking home from La Rositas!
Coloring with sidewalk chalk
Visiting Midway and the Marsh's
Conner LOVES his cousin, Elsie Gray
Getting our Christmas Tree
We went to the Newport Aquarium on Christmas Eve!
Aunt Rae-Rae got married!
Talking to Dad while he was away with the military
Pumpkin picking right before Adam left.
Exactly one year ago. Happy 4th Birthday Conner!
Happy birthday Conner, I love you, and like I told you last year and the year before that and so on, you are one thing I will never, ever regret.
Conner's 4th birthday
Conner's 2nd birthday
Conner's 1st birthday